INTO SHAPE

disciple-me 
exercise video--
my god
was a five pound 
weight--
she cut her body
from a piece of
purple construction
paper--
10 minutes abs--
15 minute tone & sculpt--
give me give me
20 minutes everyday--
get your body ready
for the ocean--
ready for the wedding--
naked ready--
love me ready--
what are you getting
your body ready for?
give me 30 more
seconds--
hold hold hold for
me-- you want
those arms-- those
thighs--
don't treat
your legs like
a bible you
shelf-rest
& pretend that you
open--
read me a psalm--
are any amoung you
suffering?
they should pray--
i want to be 
this year 
i want to let 
the voices dictate
themselves--
exercise the silence
& the air--
the ones who eat
charcoal & 
infect my body 
with numbers--
i am your OCD dreams--
assembly of
mechanisms-- i 
designed myself to
be contained-- oh 
please i want 
your to  
spill me 
i want
to be scattered--
i don't want
to have a shape--
maybe i'll collect
as the rain water
does for
shoes to 
step in-- i'm
deeper than it
seems-- this puddl
goes down 
to the trench--
down to the 
jagged fins
of angler fish--
grow me gills &
i'll breathe fire--
i was a fist
of sand--
an hourglass 
unmaking itself
into a dune--
this is a prayer
to all humans
who want to
be owners of
bodies rather than
be owned 
by parameters--
what is your circumference
anyway?
your width?
you surface area?
take my geometry 
with you--
i could be softer--
more inclined to
sleep--
the carpet
was only
a roll of wrapping
paper
to be torn
open-- what
kind of body
do i have 
waiting in the wings--
meandering--
come forward--
there are bones
here--
they have
always been yours--w
i want to find
a shape that
is ours--
oh cascade me
skin--
i keep waking up
in the glass
of water
on my end table--