fire escape

i don't have any more fish.
come & crawl out of my mouth again.
i am breaking windows
with a fist. glass. sugar.
run with me & pretend
there is nothing wrong.
flower maze. kiss me. kiss me more.
not enough air. the fire escape
covered with potted plants.
then, the dragon has a child
& the child has a radio. calling
the moon for help. wanting 
so badly to have a god
that you invent one. there she is
& she says, "give me your desperation."
once there was a void & it named 
me "blue." please come back
& kiss me like we used to.
walk a thousand miles
in the ardent rain to the house
that still manages to be 
consumed by flames. i do not have
many beetles left. i keep spending them
on shaking hands. i could not sleep.
i saw you covered in ants.
my demons said, "this is eternity."
i did not want to see it
but they kept making me look.