sleepover 11:11 wishes across a girlhood

i want to become a flock of geese. i want
to talk to the boy with a round face
& a handful of freckles. i want my fish
to live forever. i want to be thin. i want to be 
as thin as a door. i want to dissappear.
i want a roof without any holes. i want
a friend who does not try to eat me. i want
my father's hands. i do not want
to be a puppet but i do want to be gutted. 
i want to be a boy. i want to become a flock of geese.
i want to fly south for the winter. i want to 
swim the old lake. i want to call a stranger.
i want to get good grades all year. i want 
to be rich. i want to be rich enough that 
we can stay a whole week at the beach. i want
to be an only child. i want to take a previous
wish back. i want to kiss girls. i want to kiss
boys. i want to be a movie director. i want
to stay awake forever. i want my crush to like
me back. not in the middle school way but
in a way that makes a body possible. i want
to be a flock of geese. i want to go to college
in new york city. i want lights in my eyes.
i want to take all my friends with me 
inside a box made of feathers. i want a body
that does not fold inward. i want a face
without doors. i want each wish to be
a goose or a skeleton. i want a boyfriend. 
i want to be asked to a dance. i want to be
a boyfriend. i want to be a dance. i want enough
girlhood to survive the winter. i want
a body. i want a body. i want a body.