alarm clock// meteor shower 

my alarm clock 
is the same meteor
that killed 
the dinosaurs--
a scream-- a fire-tail--
i always
feel it approaching--
it's cold-heavy
body full of
so much rage--
of plunging wrath--
it looses it's black
feathers in the fall--
i lay gripping
bed frame-- 
i fear becoming
nothing but 
a crater-- 
filled in
with rain water--
scientists will 
come to inspect me--
they will run fingers 
over my banks-- over
my elbows stones
& bolder knees--
they will
conclude that my
face is nothing
but a place where 
a meteor once
smacked the earth--
this crater in
my jaw-- in my
pelvis--my clavicle--
all these meteor showers 
my body has endured--
each morning
i watch their descent--
their fierce & vengeful
plummet towards the
surface of my bones 
will you hide under
the bed with me? 
will you hold me still
& tell me to close
my eyes for five minutes 
more of sleep--
will you tattoo the red
alarm clock times
all over my skin?
line by line by line--
tell me this is all part
of waking up--
the etching of the hours 
into blood--
i tremble-- your
timpany drum--
my flesh
knows when impact
is coming--
wrap yourself around me
& when the walls
of my room scream--
i want you to be
silence-- 
silence receding
into every corner-- 
silence i grab onto 
like the edges of
my mother's quilt-- 
i open my eyes to 
survey the damages--
the cavity pounded through
my rib cage-- a valley
i become valley each morning--
i open my eyes & 
fill myself with
rain water-- a bowl
a basin--
hush the howl of
my alarm--
kiss your forehead
& get up--
in the bathroom
before the mirror
i lift up
my shirt to
see where the meteor
made impact--
this is the same meteor
that killed the dinosaurs--
it comes back each morning
for me--
tomorrow will
you hold me still again?
your ink 
thumb print
your foot step
in the mud--
your crater lover--
fill me with rain
water & float
above-- you can
be a cloud & i'll
me the sky each morning
shatters as
we wake