the trainset in my neighbot's basement is getting out of hand. first, he started with a model. a single track plotted on a green table. the train climbed over a mountain & back through a valley. all valleys are a kind of throat. the neighbor kids & me would take turns letting him make miniatures of us. he would say close your eyes & we'd turn plastic one at a time. cupping us in his hands around us, before placing our bodies on the train. i don't remember the rides but i remember watching others as their figures became useful. everyone grows up by a railroad. i had two. the real one & my neighbor. the real railroad carried box-cars of lumber & coal & natural gas. the real railroad was going somewhere but this one-- this model train is always coming back to my neighbor's knuckles. he is a short man, nearly bald & has peachy-colored palms. the train set grew, is still growing. more trains & more houses. a whole little town. now i can see it is a model of our town complete with my parent's green mailbox & the soy beans growing on commonwealth avenue. complete with each of us when we step inside. i take a walk in my plastic body. trees are growing. his whole house has become a train set. trains glide across the ceiling & up into the attic. me & the neighbor kids we don't even know his name. he is just man-in-the-white-house. you should always learn the names of your neighbors so you can call them when you are lost. a train goes all the way out to his mailbox. two of us are conductors & never come home. another, becomes a plastic river in the landscape. i tell my friends i cannot go back. not ever again. from my yard i feel the pull. i see the trains all of them. they are becoming full-sized. huge engines yelling from his basement. a switch to turn them on. climb a mountain, break a tree in two. i hide in my house & the train come knocking at every single door. track lays itself all over the neighborhood. a train is never confined to a single vein. howling, howling. the conductors telling me to get in, saying there is a throat to drive through won't you join us?