CD brother played prism wheels on the car on the way home from the emergency photo album. both in need of haircuts, we talked about jupiter & her many boomboxes. you have been trying to convert. i have been trying to reach the top shelves to find where mom keeps the extra key. there is a song that stop playing only when we put something else in & a brother who only exists inside the song on track 14. eating takeout from the garbage city. forks twiddling in our hearts like antenae. neither of us are every very hungry but you take liberties with air. stretch a breath across a violin belly & call it music. stuff night inside boots & walk carefully on a little carpet rolled out from the ceiling light. you taught me how to ascend into the popcorn machine. brain are bursting every other second in the heat of our faces. the song ends & it's just the two of us killing time with plastic bow & arrows. stomaching the spider dances: waltz & waltz again. soup can full of lost teeth. drinking water from the forbidden fountain & feeling freshly sinful. who left the hose running? well it became a brief river. dipped in our toes & kicked the bottom to find ear buds lodged in the mud. my brother & i have too much & too little in common. he sleeps with his hands folded in prayer & i sleep with my face off on the nightstand. crave that dark anonymity. plays music from his eyes & mouth. endless. jazz & chants & folk & gospel. flips a CD over & presses his finger to the clear surface just to hear the sound of his own fingerprint. asked me i wanted to try & i said "no way" even though of course i was painfully curious. instead i pressed thumb to window. left the print there & visit it still like a shrine-- a staircase to be obversed but never taken all the way down. my brother sometimes snapped CDs in half if they disobeyed him. left those color-hungry wings in the garden. took my shoes off to walk in that soft dirt & hear those fissured songs. brother with his tie undone. me with my face on the clothesline. counting the seconds before the song starts over again from the top.