angel phone call at the pay phone there's a number written above the keypad in sharpie. beside it reads, "call for any angel" & so i do. i am at a telephone booth in the middle of a galaxy of broken beer bottles & headlines. all around people are walking their cars on leashes & i think "i have to talk to god about this." catholcism taught me to be always a messenger. passing along a tongue wrapped in tin foil. the phone rings & rings until the moon goes rancid. spills melon water all over the street. a stray dog turns into a shopping cart. inside the booth i picture the angel arriving & scrawling his number quickly before moving onto the next haunting. maybe on his day off. maybe watching a television show where angels have to be mortal for a day. shaking his head he thinks "this could never be me." i rehearse how i will answer. "yes angel, this is robin & i am quickly losing." then he'll ask me follow-up questions. the longer i wait the more the ringing starts to sound like zippers or church bells. the reciever itself pastas into a macaroni elbow. i have never been so hungry. help me, help me please i think as the telephone booth shivers. it is not winter but also not any other season. i have a place to remember to be. buses are filled with sardines. every door is a lid. i speak between chimes. i say, "it is already morning," when i meant "i will give up soon." everyone should probably give up more than we do. humans value persistence & trying hard too much. i'm ready, angel, to just become a walking man. someone who everyone passes & thinks "i have seen him before." alright. i keep thinking "alright." but i can't let go. there this thought "if i just wait one second more everything will come together & he will answer." he does not. the city braids street lamps. you are probably talking to your plants. i regret everything & nothing about my architecture. i hold the phone away from me. give it three more chances. nothing. hang up. find a duck feather at my feet. we are each other's evidence. outside the city is burning blue.