whipped cream i used to eat everything by tablespoon. bees & caterpillars & birthdays. you tell me i need to stop thinking that i am alone. i have never confessed to you about the plum tree or even the ghost kitchen. i stand there at night & prune leaves. open the fridge to find rows & rows of whipped cream. "feast" is a word that has never come to visit my teeth. instead, i know the mundane famine of almost living. almost enough. almost on fire. almost homeless. almost eating plastic. almost kissing a dagger. so badly i want to not have to return to these sepulchers i want to crack a whole carton of eggs into the pan. feed all the wandering bears but not feed myself. dear lover, here it is. here is the grove of horses. here are their hooves. here is the last time i ran. to be not alone would mean i would need to show you the light bulbs. that is too much work for one lifetime, isn't it? well, tonight i will show you one thing. here is the bowl of whipped cream. here is the spoon i use. here is the way my stomach feels full of clouds when i am done. here is how i try to lick the last tastes of sweetness from the bottom of the bowl.