several kinds of alarm in the before times there were no sirens, only birds trained by a monk in the courtyard where weeds grew like children. he would bend down & whisper horrors in their ears to make them scream. a separate atrocity for each creature to spit back out in sound. in the city, we knew the sirens as women. great bodies scrambling through the streets. what does it sound like to search for a child in the wild tall grass & come up empty? we were both rooted for & ultimately unfound. slung our shoes over a telephone wire. someone is calling home. someone is calling you "darling." sirens with the stoplight in the back of their throats. i would count them as they passed. cover my face. no. i'm not who you're looking for. a tape recorder in the living room taking inventory. the loudest siren always rushed from left to right. then, the ambient one whose direction even she was unsure of. as a child in the play yard i said prayers for sirens. one hail mary. let all bodies be whole. jars for screaming. the birds in the courtyard. the monk with a leather notebook for inventing terrors to give the birds. weeping, he wants to tell the birds beautiful things only. imagines saying, "i am in love with another man." but instead swallows that urgency. the birds are neccesary tools. who else will be the warning if not them? a bird landed on my windowsill & shouted orange & red. i covered my ears. i am skilled at ignoring emergency. i don't even have a window or a windowsill. the monk is walking out & nodding at dandelions. the birds are gathering.